Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in Star's LiveJournal:

Sunday, January 25th, 2004
12:52 pm	4 day weekends!!! Well school isn't the bitch I thought it would be. It has so many clever guises that it's hard to tell anymore, but I can't really complain because I attend school only 3 days a week. So with all this new freed up time you'd think I'd be more productive and do more school work. WRONG. My procrastination mechanism has kicked itself into overdrive and now I'm worse than before. I get almost absolutely NOTHING done. [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<does [...] dance">') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Well school isn't the bitch I thought it would be. It has so many clever guises that it's hard to tell anymore, but I can't really complain because I attend school only 3 days a week. <dances about> So with all this new freed up time you'd think I'd be more productive and do more school work. WRONG. My procrastination mechanism has kicked itself into overdrive and now I'm worse than before. I get almost absolutely NOTHING done. <does the "Star is special dance"> I guess with more time you feel you have more time to do the important "work" stuff LATER. Hah..well I guess I'm just undiscipined and need a nice rigid schedule. A good character building one. <_<; ;>_> Well I'm trying to get somethings done and that's the main point of it all. Motivation is lacking and I think I need an offical "Motivation inducer" or something. Anyone need a job? Eh..what a randomly retarded update I know. Once my brain comes back from vacation I'll be better. I hope. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, December 19th, 2003
10:36 pm	Aftermath Ahhhh the sweet bliss of being out of the nerve racking, gut wrenching, mind bending, patience testing atmosphere and into the kick back and do whatevah the hell ya want enviornment is so so sweet. Yes...For anyone done with finals, you deserve the break. Finals are bloody hell. I think they're kind of sadistic, I mean what's wrong with just taking a test on the stuff you last learned? Is taking another normal test too much to ask for? The way I see it is, you work your ass off for the grade you currently have and now that you're running down the home stretch you have to run the whole race over again but 100 times as fast and if you fail, you fail the whole race. It just makes me crazy...Not only that, but they make them all next to each other, one day after another, unless you're unlucky and get them all on the same day(s). I dun know, sounds sadistic and masochistic on the student's part to me. All I have to say is good ridance and thank the sky that it's over with (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 6th, 2003
8:16 pm	Back from the Dead! So it's been a while, ok it's been....since I got my 1,000 hits. Well I've gotten my 2,000 hits and that means it's been too long to think about. School has kept me up on my toes so things like live journal are easily forgotten and unfortunately, never updated. Well here's a chance for change. Finals are coming up and that means AFTER finals I have time to be really alive again and next semester is looking very laid back so it'll be a good next semester. Lots of random art classes and other various easy 'A' classes. Thank goodness! I need a break. I need to be able to do whatever whenever again because stress kills ladies and gentlemen. It is the loud and always present killer. It's time to put an end to this senseless killing and take a very long cruise filled with eating ramen and taking late afternoon naps until it's dinnertime. That's the true vitamin for stress. Well not really, but it sounds good on paper. Ok, so it doesn't even sound good on paper. It sounded good in my head, that's all that matters. Onto other things. I'm finally going to catch up with all my fanart owing and 2000 hit winners then I can do other stuff guilt free. I owe my grandma a picture too [Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<_<>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] So it's been a while, ok it's been....since I got my 1,000 hits. Well I've gotten my 2,000 hits and that means it's been too long to think about. School has kept me up on my toes so things like live journal are easily forgotten and unfortunately, never updated. Well here's a chance for change. Finals are coming up and that means AFTER finals I have time to be really alive again and next semester is looking very laid back so it'll be a good next semester. Lots of random art classes and other various easy 'A' classes. Thank goodness! I need a break. I need to be able to do whatever whenever again because stress kills ladies and gentlemen. It is the loud and always present killer. It's time to put an end to this senseless killing and take a very long cruise filled with eating ramen and taking late afternoon naps until it's dinnertime. That's the true vitamin for stress. Well not really, but it sounds good on paper. Ok, so it doesn't even sound good on paper. It sounded good in my head, that's all that matters. Onto other things. I'm finally going to catch up with all my fanart owing and 2000 hit winners then I can do other stuff guilt free. I owe my grandma a picture too <_< >_> damn I owe EVERYONE something. Procrastination is a terrible thing when you forget you did it for so long. Well I better get working, these things don't do themselves... ^-^ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 15th, 2003
3:33 pm	Absence Well life has been pretty boring for a while so what can I say. I just didn't write about it. As a weekly recap I just went to work and came home and dug out in the yard...dirty work I tell you...Then I got a 1,000 hits yesterday so I had to do a little victory dance for that...just because..I have NO idea..but that's what I did. It made me randomly happy. ^^ Now I just gotta get more people to comment. *laughs* I'm so sad. Man. Well, today I just got back from work which was always a joy. At least I get money soon that means. ^^ *does the money dance* Well I just made my schedule for next semester and...I'm taking 6 classes! That's suicide I know, but it's ok...I've got it covered...I think. >_> 8 hours of school straight on mondays and wednesday, 9 hours on tuesdays and thursday is just one class...so it winds down toward the end of the week, but HELL NO AM I WORKING AND DOING ALL THAT. I wish it was just P.E or something, but I need 18 units...so that equates to 6 classes. >.< Well, here's to next semester! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 5th, 2003
10:55 am	Squishy Memories Whoa, 4th of July was pretty awesome. No I didn't see fireworks..but I did the day before. ^^ I'm pretty slow since I'm writing about the 4th on the 5th of July, but that's how it works sometimes. Yesterday was cool, do you know why? I'll tell you why! BECAUSE I GOT TO ROAST MARSHMALLOWS!!!!!!!!! Sad I know, but I haven't done it since I was 16 and it was at my cousin's beach party. A good memory, but I really love marshmallows that have been slightly charred. I also finished a picture I've been working on for MUCH TOO LONG. Due to laziness and lack of motivation it was a long and drawn out process, but it's finally come to an end. I'm happy to say that I'm pleased with the end results. If you ever want to visit it go to my page: http://akemichan.deviantart.com/ In other news, today is the REAL day of 4th of July celebration! Yes, go figure, the real celebration is on July 5th. ^^ So I get to eat good food and do fun stuff. No more marshmallows, but it's all good anyway. Family amuses me and if all else fails, I amuse them. (Comment on this)
Friday, June 27th, 2003
9:20 pm	My life as I know it My hands....hurt.....so....bad...I won't be able to draw for days...and I have to ink tomorrow, but that's besides the point. You know what I really like? I like respect...it makes me feel like a REAL person! Well this is a pitiful tale because it's about my life...I'm not meaning to whine either, I'm just telling it as it is. Shovels are heavy ok? WELL! It starts off with me enjoying my summer. After taking so many classes and managing to get straight "A"s I thought I could enjoy a well deserved rest. It's good when your parents can't whine about your grades because it gets old fast. So I just want to you know, just loiter, turn to goo and ooze onto the floor from being so relaxed. After having to work and go to school at the same time is sometimes stressful so I didn't think it was too bad to want to gel for a summer. I know I'm a freak and go to summer school every year of my life, but I'm just a little tired. I'm still working now so I don't get to laze about the house all day, but my parents feel otherwise. It's seriously a crime to them to have fun. I mean if I go out more than twice a week to hang with a friend they say "haven't you had enough fun for the week? You should go do something productive, or work more". -_- I don't know about you, but to me...that's just retarded. I really am grateful, I have everything I need and want, materialistically, but...I just want to be treated a little better. I mean I don't like to be yelled at, it doesn't make me feel very "good". My parents are great at times and like all things they have their ups and downs, but they are tyrants. Authoritarian. I wish they were just authoritative, but no. Yeah, so I'm not being "productive" enough((having a job isn't productive, remember that)) and to make up for this lack of "productivity" I get to dig out the patio to be with my brother. I have to do it for an hour a day. It's not even that big of a deal, but I guess it's becoming just ridiculous I mean I whined at them because I work and I feel bad for my hands since I'm going to need them...REALLY NEED THEM. So I dig on days I don't work. I guess it just comes down to me being tired of being commanded to jump through flaming loops of barbed wire dipped in a lethal poison that would kill me if it penetrated my skin. My parents told me that I'm going to crash on the freeway. Sweet huh? Crash because I don't study when they tell me to. Bah, that'll be something add to my list of quotes. I'm sorry I had to just spew this crap it's not a big deal, just pisses me off for right now. It'll be fine tomorrow. I'll have a new bar of patience for tomorrow, till then I need to unwind. Unwind so I can be wound up again. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 22nd, 2003
12:15 pm	Morning Recall Well yesterday was fuuuuuuun. I got to go to a very happy occasion, yep, since everyone already knows what I'm talking about anyway I might as well say it again. I WENT TO A FUNERAL! My great aunt passed away. She was called "Auntie Fudge" because her real name was Fujie, but most little kids can't say that kind japanese name so...Fujie=Fudge. On another note...If anyone asks me if we were close again I will fry you up in some tempura batter. WHY THE HELL DOES IT MATTER HOW CLOSE WE WERE?? She's part of my family and she's gone forever now. She's related to me by blood and she gave me some good memories that I wouldn't trade nor forget. She was an awesome person and everyone in the front rows were crying. It was so sad to see all her grand sons all crying. I mean they're in their late twenties and you KNOW they were trying to hold it in to be 'manly' and then everyone just snapped and the tissue was being passed around like a high calorie cake. I don't know about other people but you don't have to be close to feel the loss. Like I said, just because I didn't know her well doesn't make it more 'ok' in fact, it makes it 10 times worse because I lost the chance to get know someone like her. Now I have to live with the fact that she's somone I'll never BE able to know that well, to get to be close to her. So who really looses out? ME. I'm the one that should be crying because I failed. Failed to know her and really appreciate her because after the eulogy I got to REALLY see how much I failed. The only times I remember her is by the flowers we would get from her at my grandma's house. Carnations with different colored rims...and I can recall another time hugging her and man..was I short. I remember when she let me help her prepare flowers..I was cutting the bottoms of the carnations at a slant so they could take up more water. I mean THAT was cool. No one ever let me do anything, especially mom, but she let me help AND she let me use A SHARP OBJECT!!! Crazy...Little kid me with sharp object. What I really admire about her is that she was so open minded and understanding. You think that older people get more close minded and stuff, but not her. My condolences to the imediate family, they have a lot to miss about her. I won't even pretend to know the feelings they feel right now. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 19th, 2003
10:58 pm	Wild with water I went to Wild Rivers today. Yes it was overcast the WHOLE time AND it got darker as the day progressed. THAT was irony. I had fun, I mean, how can I NOT? Ok maybe the wind chill factor, but STILL it's a WATER park. You can't NOT have fun at a WATER park. Not when I'm involved anyway. The best part of it was the lines were all short and SURE you were freezing, but I like the cold, well better than heat anyway. All you need is someone to cuddle with and to share body heat with and you'd be FINE. -_- damn, perfect time to have a significant other huh? Well I had fun and I go to play in the water, swim till I was dead tired. I EVEN TURNED PURPLE FROM TEMPERATURE DISCREPANCY! Or that's what we all think it was....whatever it was I didn't get to see myself purple. The rest of my body wasn't purple, but then again the rest of my body was in water. Maybe extreme cold to extreme hot isn't a good thing. Well I FELT fine, but I still go strange stares and some little girl asked if I was ok, so I'm guessing it looked pretty bad. I wish I could have seen myself a shade of purple...I know it wasn't from cold OR hypothermia. It wasn't THAT cold and I usually look more palewhen I'm cold, not purple. Geez this is not Alaska or something. So I'm guessing it was from the heat. Well it was fun and wet so that concludes my day really. That and the quest to rediscover the word "lascivious". It's hard to figure out how to prounounce these funky words if you don't know what the little symbols stand for in the dictionary. Yes, I'm really obsessed with remembering something I already knew. If I knew it once I don't like to forget so I have to go research crazy to unearth it again. Funny enough I remember how to spell it and the definition...I just can't pronounce the damn thing for beans. It's a matter of habit. I learned how to say it one way, which is really incorrect, and trying to remember it the RIGHT way is a lot harder. The association between the word, the def and the pronunciation are hard things to change once you get set in your ways, but I'm battling it. I WILL know how to say it right...so whenever..I need to...use that...well I guess I'll say it right dammit! Damn vocab words from hell! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 18th, 2003
12:58 pm	Oodles of Noodles TODAY IS MY BROTHER'S BIIIIIRRRRRTTTTHHHHDDDAAAYYY!! Everyone give him hugs! The look on his face will be priceless if you do. THAT alone would make his birthday great. Have random strangers jump out and hug him. *laughs evilly* Naw, I love him. As soon as he starts to cry I'd kick that person's ass and then put my foot on their unconscious body, strike a pose and yell, "VIIIIICCCCTTTTTOOOORRRRYYYY!!!" ---->You know WHAT? I lied on my other journal, I didn't go to work yesterday...I went to work today OOOHHHH didn't see that come'n didja!? DIDja!? Yes, the file cabinets were ... pissy today. They folder bite me and bent two of my nails backwards. It was comfortable to say the least, but...."shikata wa nai" as my best friend's mom says. Yeah I just silently cursed to myself and kept filing...it was WEIRD it would randomly hurt...not constantly, but every now and then there would be a random spike of pain in my two fingers. It was kind of amusing in a masochistic way. ^^ Well I have a lot to do and not too much day to do it in so.. s'all for now. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, June 16th, 2003
6:45 pm	Full of day Well here I am. The day is almost over, but it's been eventful and well...I'm glad. *dances about* On the other hand I've been really anti- productive. Did anything get finished? Peh! Not a thing! It's not too bad though...Some days you just NEED to do nothng but talk and waste time. Or well maybe it's from lack of a life, but I don't mind. ^^ I got to just chill for a day, kinda gel, then turn into a solid overnight and go to work the next morning. Joyus event. Work. Work isn't bad, but mindnumbing work is relentless. It attacks your brain and gobbles up all your thoughts. It does that hostile take over kind of deal, just like when you have somebody you like, a crush, obsession, whatever. Thoughts about them just swarm your grey matter and cut off any other on going processes or worldy bubbles then you're left with only one thought, one focus. Filing. I file, and it's boring as hell. It's monotonous and when the papers bite you it REALLY REALLY sucks. One the positive side the people I work with are lovely ^^ They're all nice and helpful and they're hilarious! My work hours are also very lax and I love that too. So the place is great, the papers just suck. They're always there more and more everyday. Well I won't be there forever, but at least I was given this opportunity for a little while. Be leery of the papers! (1 Comment |Comment on this)